Introductory blog

It's my first blog here woo! Lets see, My name is Deanna and I'm a senior in High School. I live in SC.

My horrible stats:

HW: 206lbs (September '09)
CW: 162lbs (December 26 '09)
height: 5ft 5in
GW: 125-130
Jean size @ HW: size 16/17
Jean size atm: 9/10 (at most stores, but it varies)

The beggining of this school year I decided to go on a diet to lose weight. I did some research and discovered all about calories, fat, carbs, and all that good shit. WebMD suggested I start out on a 1200 calorie a day diet, so I did. I followed through with that and some moderate exercise every now and then for about 4 months and then poof 4 whole months later I had sheded about 45lbs. But during this time, I became obsessed. I fell in love with losing weight. I love the feeling of accomplishing something. My 1200 calories a day dwindled to 1000 calories a day and then to 800 calories a day. Its been a rocky ride here lately. I even broke down oneday after a small binge and made myself throw up. I've never been a purger. But I made myself do it. And for like I week I would restrict all day, then at night, binge on like 500 calories and purge it all. Well I quit that shit. I felt like I was losing control once again, I hate binging so much. I feel like I've lost control. And this new year will serve as my year to find CONTROL. That's all I want really.
See my parents are extremely overprotective. They have a tight grip on every aspect of my pitiful little life. They control everything. What I do, who I go with, when I have to be home. Everything. They won't even give me a chance to show them how responsible I am. It's sad. I'm not a chest beating retard, I'm a straight A student who is self-determined. I only wish they would loosen the leash and let me be free. But God put them in my life for some reason, so I just pray about my worries and let Him help me.

Well that's my background and how I wound up here. Blogging really helps me get my feelings out.

Oh I would like to start ending my posts with a quote. Pro-ana or not, I'm gonna leave one that I like alot and that motivates or moves me.

"You will come to know that what appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest investment that you will ever make."