Morning Thoughts

So day four of my fast, and I'm waay hungry. But I'm determined, I made it this far, I'm not going to fuck it up. I absolutely cannot wait to weigh in tomorrow!!! It's been so hard not to step on that scale. I'm hoping to atleast have lost 3lbs, if I don't...I'll prolly cry. I'm aiming to be 159 or below. Anything above that is just unacceptable. We shall see.

Fasting has gave me me a ton of time to just sit and ponder things. Really think ya know. This is what I've been thinking about this morning. I used to eat soooo much. Like seriously. Before my diet/obsession I would just sit around the house and eat. I blame boredom as the number one reason I ate so much. I realize that now. Looking back, I would just stuff my face because I nad nothing better to do. Emotional eating also got me too. Bastard emotions. lol. I would eat when I was sad, happy, upset, anxious...Wow such a lack of self control. Well I'm better now thank goodness.
I remember when I didn't even know what a calorie was. Now it's all I'm concerned with. I'm always looking up calories of everything. I have already memorized the calories in my safe foods. How funny. I can memorize the calories in foods but not my school work.

Well I'm unbelievably bored. I better go occupy my time with cleaning so I don't think about food. XD